我不喜欢这样的我！

今天的心情又是糟透了！

中午时分被几个工人给气坏了！在气头上的我却把脾气发在另一个无辜的工人身上，好内疚...

有时真的觉得好人难做！人善就一定得被欺负吗？

不管怎么样，我坚持要做个不被欺负的好人！！

[01.02.2010...Company Dinner @ The Paramount]

又是个快乐天...

虽然有些坏，有些幸灾乐祸，不过今天还真的挺开心的！至少我知道周末所付出的辛劳没白费...

开心只因为...

... 又有个设计被老板通过了！在短短的一个月内就有两个设计被通过了，2010年的开始还算不错，要继续加油哦！

... 想通了一些事，心情轻松多了！

告别2009年... 迎接2010年...

2009年的最后一天...

本想放工后就赶紧回家，以避免市区内的人潮...
不料同事们说要到冰海湾那倒数，看烟花，好玩的我便跟着去了...
可想而知，那儿的人潮是多到不行的... 还好我们还能赶在最后的时刻找到一个挺不错的位置看烟花...
烟花是挺壮观的，不过我却觉得没什么特别... 但气氛肯定是有的...
2009年就这样在灿烂的烟花与欢呼声中结束了... 迎来了漂亮的2010年!

2010年的第一天...

忙着穿梭在人群中寻找看烟花的好位置，2009年的最后一餐都没来得及吃... 肚子都饿坏了...
想不到2010年的第一餐可以如此的丰盛... 吃的我们都快撑死了... 哈哈!
看起来我们在这新的一年里应该都不愁吃了！

祝福你...

为什么总是要到有人快离开时才会感到些许的舍不得...
回想起以前对他的态度并不是太好，还真有点过意不去，希望他不会把这些放在心上。
这次无奈的回国，心里一定不好受吧...
虽然说我们并不是那么的熟，但还真有点为他感到担心，担心他会不会很难过，担心他回国后找工作会不会有问题...
又或许这次回国能让他找到更适合自己的工作，不用在这老是被别人责怪...
真心的祝福他在往后的日子里会过得更好，更开心...
好好保重，我们有缘再见了！

... ...

今天的“杀气”实在是太重了…

已经不想再埋怨了…

理想与现实...

人们常说机会不常有，而当它来的时候，一定要懂得好好的抱窝...
但如果这机会是与自己理想背道而驰的，那又该如何取舍...

应该放弃这机会，往自己的理想迈进？
就算前方的路一片茫然，也要勇敢的往前走？

还是该好好的抱窝这机会，继续的往前冲刺？
就算这会离自己的理想越来越远也都无所谓？

... ...

曾经答应过自己不再为工作而流泪...
但今天却被一位客户气得忍不住而落泪...
感觉有点对不起自己...

真希望今年快点过去...
或许明年什么都不会改变...
但至少我能把今年给淡忘...

又或许我只是想逃避拔了...

又一个离别...

近来的公司格外安静，又一位同事走了。不知不觉，当初所认识的同事全都离开了，只剩下我一个了。这还是我工作以来第一次感觉到有点寂寞...

或许，也是时候该往前前进了...

离别的开始...

人与人之间的关系真的很奇妙...

有时，真的觉得她很讨人厌... 时不时就在那儿发牢骚，无理取闹...
有时，又觉得她其实还挺好的... 偶尔也会帮我们解决一些事情...

由于今天是她在公司的最后一天，我和同事买了份小礼物送给她...
没想到她竟然早已准备了红包给我们！挺惊讶的！

我想有些事真的是过了就算了，没有么好计较的...

毕竟能相遇一起工作也是一种缘分吧！

说不定，在以后的日子里也很难再碰上一面...

不管么样，都希望她在新的工作上能一切顺利，不会再有这么多的牢骚了！

too simple-minded?

Am currently feeling quite disturbed by something that I get to know today.

Just when you think the bosses are nice and ok people, it’s sad to realise that they are actually not, or at least after hearing all the things about them, I think they are not. Maybe some things are better to be left in the dark than to know the truth, at least I can still choose to believe that they are nice bosses, and nice bosses do exist!

defu lane no more...

My office has successfully shifted over the weekend. Even though the whole process of packing to shifting only lasted for 2 days, we were already dead tired at the end of it. Didn’t realize that such a small office can actually store so much stuff! The reason why this shifting was done in such a rush is because they are trying to avoid any delay in handing over the old factory to the landlord and thus the need to pay for the rents of both factories. This also means that even though we have already officially moved into the new office, all our office tables and cabinets are still not up yet and so, we are all currently working on recycled and make shift tables. Quite an interesting scene I would say if you were to come to our office now.

Even though most of the things are not ready at the new office, I would think that it is still a much cleaner and better environment to work in as compared to the previous old and gloomy office. Went to explore a bit of the surroundings during lunch time to check out what is available and we were generally quite satisfied with the great amount of eateries and shops as well as the clean and open environment. Well, maybe it may not appear to be that great to those of you who have been to that area, but to us who have been cooped up at defu lane for all these while, this is such a heaven. Guess it is in such circumstances that one really learns to appreciate the things around them.

I was actually feeling a bit sad to leave the old factory last Saturday, not that I will really miss the place, just that I think this is one of those places that I would never stepped in again for no reason in the future. Nevertheless, I am truly glad that I have had the chance to see and work in such an environment, after all it’s an experience that not everyone gets to have...

the ‘Budget Value’ shop that both my colleague and I always patronize in the morning

nice green walk from the market to the traffic junction

the uneven pavement leading to my factory

factory entrance

my workstation

a busy yet fulfilling week...

It has really been quite a busy week, both at work and at play.

At work, there were some really tight deadlines and it was definitely a record setting for me to actually complete each of the designs within 2 days. As a result, I was quite tired out. But amidst the mad rush, there came a good news that one of the design I had done was quite well-liked by the client and this is really great news to me. It is definitely not easy to come up with something that matches exactly the expectation of the client, and many a times, we have to go through rounds and rounds of amendments before we can finally come out with something of their likings. It may be sheer luck that I managed to come that close to it on the first attempt, but it is definitely a great form of encouragement for me, to continue to produce more good designs (and losing more sleep...).

Went to a karaoke pub with my colleagues and bosses on Monday night and Wow!! my two bosses are really good singers. One sounds like 张学友, and the other like 张信哲. One of my colleagues also sang 周杰伦’s 夜曲 and that really made my bosses’ glasses drop with all his rapping. Went Karaoke again on Friday with my colleagues and it was fun too, to hear all the great songs sang by my colleagues. And the most interesting thing is to actually hear one of my colleagues sing 非玉清’s songs and he really sounds like 非玉清!

Was at vivo city with my other colleague yesterday to source for some retail shop front ideas, as well as to do some shopping. I must say that it was a very fulfilling trip, with some window shopping done, lots of new knowledge learnt plus a hagaan daz ice-cream treat by my colleague. Must really thank her for sharing so much with me and the ice-cream treat and hope that she wasn’t bored by all my questions.

Have really quite enjoyed myself this week, what a fulfilling week it was...

beautiful saturday morning...

it was such a beautiful saturday morning...

despite having to work today, i was actually enjoying my journey to work this morning happily snapping away...

a simple girl in a simple world...

Again, I have successfully survived my first month of work. Things are fine at work, no complains yet and I hope that there won’t be any in the future. Was a bit stressed at times over the design proposals and tight schedule, but it’s fine cos the amount of satisfaction I get in return is more than enough to compensate for whatever stress I had and all the lost of sleep.

Having got my first month’s pay for the job, I was actually feeling quite happy despite that small sum. The feeling this time round is a bit different from the past, it is the kind of “hard-earned” money kind of feeling, I have put in my effort and this is what I have earned, unlike the past, where I just sit there doing nothing and the money just come in every month as scheduled. To me, the money then has no meaning at all. Maybe some of you out there might think that I am stupid to think in this way, but I think I am someone who value satisfaction and happiness much more than monetary gains. And I feel that satisfaction and happiness are something that will really bring you further in whatever things you do in your life than merely monetary benefits, which may, no doubt, sustain your material wants for a short while but this kind of feeling does not last. Or at least, this is how I feel. Or maybe I am just a simple minded person who just wants to be happy doing things that I enjoy...

ah keow's first week @ work...

Yes, I have safely survived my first week at the new workplace.

For the benefit of those who have yet to be told, my new office is actually located at one of those industrial area in the east side and it is a totally contrast to my previous workplace in Orchard Road. Originally, I was a little worried that I might not get used to the distance and condition of the workplace, but I think I have already sort of get used to it in this one week. And in fact, I think I quite like the serenity of the area in the morning and have quite enjoyed my daily walk to the office. The only bad thing is that I have to really look out for all the holes in the uneven ground to avoid falling and hitting onto those heavy vehicles parked along the roadside.

Work wise, I have already got some residential design work on hand and with the help of my colleague, I think I am slowly getting the hang of it. Still a bit slow, but I am happy that I am going somewhere and I must say that I quite enjoy the things I am doing now.

The people there are also quite nice, especially one of my colleagues who has helped me a lot in this one week and I have really learnt quite of bit of things from him.

On the whole, I think I quite like what I am doing now and it really feels good to be learning once again!

summing up...

i think it is time that i should sum up my work life these two and a half years, now that i am moving on to a new chapter in my work life.

Though i have been stagnant these two and a half years, i still feel that it is a route worth traveling. Throughout this journey, i have made some good friends, some friends whom i will really treasure for life. There are also some people whom i wish our paths will never cross again, not that i really hate them so much, just that i think my life will be better off without their presence. It has also made me see the many different sides to a person’s personality. Everyday, its stages plentiful of badmouthing and criticizing scenes behind people’s back, however, there are also heartwarming times when u arrive to the office early in the morning only to find some simple breakfast or gifts on your table.

Work throughout these two and a half years has really been fluctuating. There were times where we really tired ourselves out with all the OTs, but somehow i find them to be quite memorable. On the other hand, there were times where there was simply nothing to do and i just sit there staring at the monitor not knowing what to do. It gets quite depressing after a while and i really dislike this kind of feeling. But I am glad it’s all over now.

One more week to my new job and i really hope to face all the new challenges with a more positive attitude and most importantly, to find back my zest and confidence towards work. Hope that there will be no more complains and things can be much simpler...

Two of my colleagues who have accompanied me through this journey and i would really like to thank them for all that they have done. Think i will definitely miss all the chatting and gossiping sessions with them.

The small working space that i have been facing everyday...

These are the farewell gifts from my colleagues and i really like them, especially the whole set of cds and vcds from my office secretary. Maybe all of you reading this now might find it weird as to why she gave me all these, but it doesn’t matter because i know very well what they meant to her and to me...

Lastly, i would like to share with you this, an extract from the card my colleague gave to me. A set of words that really touches me and i hope that that you will find them meaningful too...

Keep Believing in Yourself and Your Special Dreams

There may be days
when you get up in the morning
and things aren’t the way
you had hoped they would be.
That’s when you have to
tell yourself that things will get better...

There are times when people
disappoint you and let you down,
but those are the times
when you must remind yourself
to trust your own judgements
and opinions,
to keep your life focused on
believing in yourself
and all that you are capable of.

There will be challenges to face
and changes to make in your life,
and it is up to you to accept them.
Constantly keep yourself headed
in the right direction for you.
It may not be easy at times,
but in those times of struggle
you will find a stronger sense
of who you are,
and you will also see yourself
developing into the person
you have always wanted to be.

Life is a journey through time,
filled with many choices;
each of us will experience life
in our own special way.
So when the days come
that are filled with frustration
and unexpected responsibilities,
remember to believe in yourself
and all you want your life to be,
because the challenges and changes
will only help you to find
the dreams that you know
are meant to come true for you

~ Deanna Beisser

confirmed, guaranteed n chopped...

So this is it... i have just accepted the new job offer. Still lots of worries and uncertainties, but i guess it’s really the time that i got to move on. Like what people always say, opportunities don’t come knocking on your door twice, so i guess it’s a gamble that i have to take. Not sure where this will take me to, but one thing for sure is that i will no longer be standing on this very spot.

Am definitely looking forward to all the new exposures and learning opportunities as well as working with new colleagues. Wish me luck then!

the past 2 weeks...

My apologies for missing in action for quite a while. It was only upon seeing Kelly’s comment that i realized that i haven’t been blogging for a while. i was in fact quite touched to learn that i was actually being missed... hee...

i had finally made the long awaited move in applying for an interior design job, through the help of a previous aki school mate. So, this period of time was spent on getting my resume and portfolio ready for today’s interview. i was in fact quite stressed over it for the past few days (really need to thank ah teng for all the “counseling”!!), but the fact proved that the interview wasn’t as scary as i thought it to be. It came out to be quite a casual talk with the boss. And the verdict is... i was being offered the job. It was definitely great news to me. However, as there are some other factors of consideration, i will only give them an answer early next week. i guess i roughly know what my decision will be, just that i think i still need to reassure myself of certain things before coming to a conclusion.

No matter what my eventual decision will be, i am really very grateful to this friend of mine for all his help. The fact is that i don’t really know him back in school then, and i don’t think i had ever spoken to him before and it is really very nice of him to still offer his help.